I had mixed emotions... i had baby envy, i see friend's with babies, or feeling unfair or jealous people getting married because they got pregnant.... i used to like to play with kids or babies.. but some how.. i realised, i did not want to any more.. the baby cry if i want to carry them.. i felt rejected.. it made me feel sad..
i don't know how to explain my feelings. but i was sad and angry at the same time.
