Post iui #1 day #7

I feel bloated most of the time and discomfort around my tummy. Not sure if I'm pee-ing extra compared to usual or am just drinking more...

Last night my ovaries hurt again.. Left and right side.. I wonder what's going on in there..

If only I have a scanner to see right through me and shout to the sperm! My egg is on the left side!!! Swim left!! Not right!!!

I read up yesterday sperms may swim up the wrong tube.. (eggless tube) and wait for the egg! And eventually die from waiting! They're not smart to u-turn and search for the egg! Omg! Stressing me out!!

And hubs said... His family has the worst sense on directions!!! So the swimmers might not find the egg!! :((

One Thursday passed- situation; still sane.

Next Thursday : can't promise if I'm gonna remain sane.

Post iui #1 day #2

Headache!!!! Not sure if its just me or it's related iui!!

Don't dare to eat panadol.. So I just had to bare with the pain!

Went to sleep with all the feng Yao on my face, stomach, head.

Lucky me for Siang pure oil!

Post iui #1 day #1

Came home from my IUI bought some yummy malay rice by the street at Damansara heights, we really enjoyed lunch and will go back and buy again..

After lunch i was so tired and just knocked out! I had a really good nap..

Woke up and had a really Bad cramp.. Worst than my PMS cramps! I thought it was the street food that i ate! Went to the toilet and nothing came out! Empty!

I was so in pain... And yet i had to go the laundry that night for a friend's gig.. Was reluctant as i would need to smell all the smoke and could not smoke!

Came home about midnight, washed up and pee, and when i wiped after pee, my tissue had blood on it.. The color isnt the same as period's blood.. Its asthough i cut myself..

I panicked and GOOGLED! Thank god everyone after iui experienced some cramps and spotting! Phew! Nothing to worry about..

Do you think it was the DR. 's duty to inform me I might have this symptoms?

Hmmm...

My iui #1 experience

Our sperm donor dropped off his healthy swimmers at 10ish am.. We woke up early... And went for breakfast, called Dr. P's office and they say come in at 11.30am-12pm... Previously I've read a few blogs and they mentioned that they need a full bladder, so I went there with my water bottle.. Drinking away.. But I know it wasn't enough.. The nurses told me not to drink so much.. They were afraid I'll be too full and need to release it out before the iui!

We waited about 30mins.. And they were extremely busy today.. So many couples coming in for their treatment, with their little blue bags, coming in for injections, and I saw a whole family there probably giving moral support to one of the lady.. She must be doing her Ivf today..

In my heart I was thinking today must be a good day!


About 12.35pm they called out my name, brought us to a tiny and long room the size of room is just enough for 2 stools, one bed, n one table.

The nurse showed us the washed sperm, its in a test tube, it's very little, only about 1cm in height.. She said they only pick the strongest and strengthen them.. Asked her how they strengthen and she couldn't give me a perfect answer..

Took off my undies and shorts, (should wear a dress, feel less naked) lie down and waiting patiently for Dr. P..

While waiting hubs ask me why do they have such a big ass torch in this room? Of course I don't know why!

Dr. P came in and did not waste any time. Asked have I seen the sperm, and told me this will only take about 5-10 mins. He open up a new speculum I presume, and put some lubricant on it and insert into my vagina! Was trying so hard not to tense up.. But it hurts.. After that he took a syringe with a long thin tube and suck the sperm up.. I hope he suck every sperm up! Then he proceed with his next step.. Next thing my hubs said was.. Oh she's using the torchlight now! It's to shine at my vagina so Dr. P has a clear VIEW of my pathway to the uterus!

Next thing Dr P asked is.. Xxx full bladder? Omg! Yes! Why??? Panic-KY me was freaking out.. Looking at the nurse who is now next to me.. I ask her if everything is ok?? I thought to myself.. I knew I should have drank more water.. It wasn't 100% full bladder but the nurse said as long as you have the urge to pee is enough cause it will eventually go down..

Anyway, the next thing I heard was like a cracking twisted sound, and it was painful.. It made me jerk a bit and it caused me to tear.. I was trying so hard not to cry.. But my tears just profusely dripped like a running tap..

Next thing I know.. It's done!! Still wiping my tears away! Doctor said okay! Almost got up and he told me to lay down for another 10 minutes.

Said to do the pregnancy test 2 Thursdays from now. (if only its 24 hr wait) and will give me some pills to strengthen my uterus.

That was it, my most expensive sex! That I didn't even enjoy.

Total cost for iui today RM980.

Total expenses for my iui, cashier says it's counted from my 2nd day of period.. Anything before it's not part of the treatment..

Rm180+RM180+RM980= RM1340

I cant sleep!!

Omg! Its 3.20am and I have to be awake soon for my iui attempt no 1! So excited at first.. Then it must be the 4 glasses of green tea I drank that am so wide awake! Then my hubs have to tell me some upsetting news about my folks.. That got me all so worked up! Which is not the best time! Argh! And now he is happily sleeping and snoring !! And leaving me here not at my best emotion ... At this timing...

I need happy thoughts and a channel to channel this anger instead of going out and lighting a cancer stick!! Which again, is so damn difficult! :((

I just wanna cry my lungs out!!

Only one egg!!

Today the clinic isn't as pack as usual.. I was running a bit late, so hubs dropped me off and he went to park. My name was called before hubs reach the clinic! That's how fast!

Dr P checked, did ultrasound.. Think today am a little bit more tense.. It was slightly painful.. He looked at the screen and said looks okay.. I saw nothing at all... And then he moved the ultrasound thingy around and told me.. Here's the egg... Never tell me if it's an okay size but looks big to me.. But only one egg!!! My reaction was only one??? So sad! He asked me how many do you want? Haha! You only need one egg to have a baby.. Whoops !

My bad, thought I needed more than one. But anyway he said something like the medication did not help me much or something.. I guess if I'm going for a 2nd iui he will give me some stronger dosage.

Next thing he asked me to do is.. Go pee on a stick.. Actually pee in a cup and see if am ovulating... If its positive I'm doing my iui#1 tomorrow.. If it's not he'll give me the hcg jap I think to force ovulate.. And my iui will be on Friday..

It's so difficult to pee under pressure let alone in a cup! it was a morning appointment so of course I let go my morning pee first thing I woke up.. I drank a few cups of water... Several cups.. Went to toilet.. Sat down and hum shhhh shhh to myself!! Few minutes later.. Nothing came out.. Went out drank lots of water again.. Told the nurses .. Nothing yet... Haha she told me just a little will do.. Showing me she need about one cm of pee.

Drank lots n lots of water.. Went to toilet and sat again few minutes later I had some droplets of yellow pee!!

Passed it to the nurse... No other patients was waiting to go in.. Lucky me. Straight away my name was called to go into Dr. P's room!

Yay its a positive! I save some money on the jap and no painful needles poking! Besides that, he made me felt I was already positive for a pregnancy test!!

Today's visit cost me Rm80 consultation, Rm80 ultrasound and Rm20 lab test total damage rm180!

Tomorrow she said we will be paying rm980 for iui!!

Oh I asked her why sometimes they charge consultation and why sometimes they don't? She said depends on doc! :)

Wish me luck tomorrow!!!

Side effects of tamoxifen

Just after I've blog that there's no side effects... I had the worst pain... Ever..

My ovaries feels like it's expanded, stomach feels bloated, my left and right side of stomach was excruciating pain!!

I was afraid I was ovulating.. The last time I had the hcg jap I felt something similar too, as though I can feel the eggs coming out...

So I'm hoping it's nothing like that when I see the doctor on Wednesday!

Pre IUI emotions.

I hope Dr. P's calculation is accurate.. today will be my last day on tamoxifen... it's RM20 a night. haha! I don't feel any side effects from it so far.. maybe a little bloated? But not too sure if that's from tamoxifen.. no new pimples on my face.. which is a good news for me. haha..

Will be going away for the weekend.. and be back in time for my 1045am appointment on Wednesday.. I'm kinda prepared to hear him say.. WHOOPS, you have ovulated! We try again next cycle!

But i hope it's not that.. anyway, no negative energy! I just need to be patient and NOT think about the whole Wed appointment..

Wishing upon a star...

I'm really wishing hard that it'll be successful on our first attempt on IUI #1

I've quit smoking when we were trying to conceive, but after the Big News, i started smoking again.. and this round, it seems tougher to quit.. But .. i have to. I'm staying away from my ciggie friends at the moment..

I read about acupuncture helping some girls to conceive, not sure if I'm too late to do such treatments! Probably am.. since we're going away this weekend and will only be back before my date with Dr P on Wednesday morning...

Advice given to me is to start drinking Ba Zhen soup after my period, and take 'home made' chicken essence.

Doctor always said because it's your first time, we won't be giving you medication, we don't want you to end up having twins or triplets! I hope he does not mean, there will be a second time! Our piggy bank might not survive the many attempts.

Fingers crossed! -

Star Light Star bright,
The first star I see tonight,
I wish I may, I wish I might,
Have the wish I wish tonight.

3rd day period

Appointment is at 12.15pm, arrived about 12pm. We were the 5th couple in queue ... 1pm our name was called! Yay!

Went in and....

:) doc just rub his ultra sound tool on my tummy and say everything looks good! No cyst!

Ok you're good and we'll see you next Wednesday! Rm80!!

We will give you some pills Nolvadex-D Tamoxifen 20mg to eat, take 2 every night rm100! for 10 tablets!

His time 5 minutes = lucky us, free consultation

Today's visit cost rm180!

While lady was helping me to get cleaned up and changed.. Doctor spoke to hubs and said... Your wife is very fertile! Woot woot!

My next appointment is on the 12th day! 23rd 10.45am!!! and if all okay, they will give me some injection and i will ovulate within 48hours, and that's when we will be doing the IUI! I SUPER SUPER HOPE, i get a BIG FAT POSITIVE on my first time!

My period has arrived!!

Have never been happier to see blood! Haha !! Yes i know, too much details.. hahaha!

Slept and woke up really early, wasn't sure what time does Dr P's office open.. But I tried my luck and called at 8.30am.

And my appointment with them for a check up is on Monday 12.15pm! Now I've to skip work again!

Yea-hoooo!

Anxious!!

It's so funny! I'm counting the days to my period!

The lady said, call us when you have your period, so we can make an appointment for you on the 2nd or 3rd day of period.

:)

9/11/11 How much does it cost to freeze the sperms?

We went to the clinic, did not need to see Dr. P. Husband just needed to read the consent form, to sign why are we freezing the sperm. (ticked) the for back up plan of IUI treatment.

Next - CASHIER.. or based on her business card, Patient Liason Officer... On the 2nd of November, she said freezing of sperm is RM350, IF, sperm is good. So we didn't want to pay upfront just in case, sperm isn't good, why pay in advance? So she said it's okay we can wait till the results come in and pay later..

So that's why we're here today.. to pay the RM350.

But... She explained.. we have 5 tubes, and each IUI treatment only uses 1 tube, so we have additional 4 tubes.. to FREEZE it for a year it will cost us RM1350!!! I think my blood pressure just shot up. And i thought to myself.. WHAT IF, its a big fat positive, i don't need to freeze it for a year, but anyway, we can freeze it up to five years maximum, and each year will cost us RM1000.

Then.. we thought about it.. like in that few seconds, husband said........ can we just pay RM350 first to freeze, and after the treatment, we see what's the result, and decide if we want to continue freezing it or we might not need it etc etc.. She's nice enough to allow us to wait till December to give her a decision if we want to continue freezing it..

Anyway, I'm not sure if my 'sperm bank' is willing to give us sperm for free for as long as we need them. : P

8/11/2001 - A phone call from the fertility centre

Throughout the week, i've been wanting to ask my brother in law when he is dropping off his swimmers.. But i really really don't wanna sound pushy and pressuring him... So i kept quiet...

On Monday... I received a call from my brother in law, he asked for the clinic's number. Was busy so i did not ask him much..

1 hour later I received a call from the clinic. Requesting my husband to go in tomorrow morning to pay for the freezing of sperm rm350 and to sign a letter of consent that the sperm belongs to us!!

And i had to ask, FREEZING OF SPERM?? does that mean my brother in law has dropped it off??? - yes. Oh.. How's the results?? - Good!

Yayyyyy!!!!! Best news I've heard this week! N it's only the beginning of the week!

2/11/2011 - the date our IUI baby journey begins

1.15pm a trip to the clinic with our sperm donor. :) And my husband... Just imagine the people's eyes thinking what sort of relationship is this.. 2 man n a woman walked into a gynae fertility centre! Haha...

The doctor must be hungry today.. He wasn't as detailed as our first visit. We felt like we had more questions to ask after the visit.

Our rm80 visit was a very short visit. He spoke to b.i.l about the consequences. The logic, etc.

He agreed to donating a human tissue or cell to us and he is not donating a baby to us.

Doctor did some checks - vaginal ultra sound rm80 and saw that I've ovulated and left side and right side had some eggs (I forgot the amount) so he did not need to prescribe me any medication.

Just told me come again on your 7th or 8th day!!

I presume he means on my 7th day from my first day of period!

Sperm donor had to do some check up, semen sample, blood test, etc.. Rm130 ...

I don't want to pressure him and give me a date when he is going to drop it off.. But I'm just so excited.. Hoping it's all good news!


FINGERS CROSSED!

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